About

I wanted to write a blog about anxiety and OCD, something which affects so many of us but still doesn’t seem to get the total airtime it deserves. The aim is for us all to have HOPE so the intention is for the blog to bring glimmers of it. I write under a pseudonym because of the nature of my work but I hope that doesn’t prevent me from doing my bit to raise awareness.

17 thoughts on “About

  1. Hi Emily, just read your OCD blog re your intrusive thoughts about being a paedophile. Just wanted to say thank you for such an eloquent and brave story. I suffer in much the same way, with a range of intrusive thoughts linked to sexual/fear of losing my mind obsessions.

    I find that unfortunately the media trivializes OCD and shies away from shining a light on sexual/harm/religious based obsessions, because they are still too much of a taboo.

    I wish you all the luck in the world for your recovery and remember that although it sometimes doesn’t feel like it, OCD can never take away who we truly are.

    David, London

    • Hi David,

      Thank you so much for your comment, it sounds like we have pretty much the same obsessions judging by what you said so I’m pleased you have found my blog!
      I agree that the media trivialises it a lot, it’s just become synonymous with ‘neurotic’ or ‘quirky’, it’s frustrating when we have experiences of how distressing it can be.
      I hope that you are doing well and are having or have had treatment for yours.
      Do you write a blog? If you do feel free to post a link to your blog πŸ™‚
      Thanks again for commenting and you’re right we have OCD, we are not OCD

      Emily.

      • That’s ok Emily, no problem. For good measure I went and put another blog comment on the page I actually meant to first time round, your original one from a few days ago! Got carried away writing and forgot which post I was on.

        Yes I identify closely with the vast amount of what you’ve written, it’s all so perceptive and describes very accurately pure OCD. It could be my story you’re telling almost. All very eloquently written too.

        I haven’t got my own blog, at times I’ve felt like I have my OCD thoughts all day anyway, I didn’t want to put any more emphasis on them, or risk them worsening by giving them even more focus. But I think a bit differently now and I can see the benefits from writing your own blog so who knows…

        I left a few ideas that I’ve found handy for dealing with pure OCD on my other comment – it sounds like you’re very familiar with the subject but I would be happy to post the other ideas I have on here or send them to you. Just little things I’ve realised generally work well to reduce the impact of pure O intrusive thoughts.

      • Hi David, I’ve just read the do’s and don’ts that you’ve sent me. I think it’s great and if its ok with you I’d love to have it as a guest post. Would that be ok and if so do you have a twitter account you’d like me to put a link to anything? Thanks for writing it, I think people will find it really helpful πŸ™‚

  2. Hi David,
    I can understand your apprehensions about starting your own blog, I’ve had my own anxieties about this one but ultimately I think it’s good for me to expose my worries and OCD for what it is and lessen it’s power.
    Thank you for your thoughts and suggestions on what helps with intrusive thoughts. I’ve been meditating every day since the start of the year and I have definitely have found that helpful for recognising that thoughts are just thoughts they are not facts etc. Any suggestions you’ve got would be excellent. Feel free to post them on here, that way everyone gets to benefit from them πŸ™‚
    Warm thoughts and hoping you had a peaceful weekend
    Emily

    • Hi Emily, thanks! : ) I’m glad you like it, I took some time over it and hopefully people can take heart from it and find it useful. Yes you are welcome to put it on a guest post if you like.

      I don’t have a Twitter account at the moment unfortunately, just email – I’m aware that this probably makes me somewhat Stone Age, I keep intending to get one sorted.

      In addition to my Luddite tendency, I guess my own anxiety/OCD/depression has made me feel very negative at times, where I didn’t really want to connect with friends, sad as that is to say. I didn’t recognise the person I’d become and fell into that awful trap of making comparisons with how well they seemed to be doing and with how I was becoming more and more lost and further from my dreams.

      I would always always stress to anyone suffering from any mental ill health to make the effort to speak to good friends/family in person regularly. Many times I’ve felt like I couldn’t do this because I felt so anxious and depressed, but once there and ‘living alongside’ my troubles I generally began to feel calmer and proud of myself for doing what needed to be done (not that I always managed it of course, but we must forgive ourselves too)

      As an aside, my favourite self help type book is an extremely insightful one called ‘Constructive Living’ by David Reynolds. I wish I had read it a lot sooner. I have the main themes of it pinned up on my wall and I find reading them regularly has been tremendously helpful for me.

      Hope you’re doing well : ) David

  3. Hi Emily,
    Sorry to see from your Twitter that things are tough today with your intrusive thoughts. As I’ve mentioned previously, I find that saying to myself that I notice that I’m having XYZ thought, and rating my anxiety out of 10 helps create some distance from it. Other than that – exercise, laughter, doing something that really occupies your mind, they may all help distract you.

    Hope things ease for you soon : )

    PS – I’ve decided to drag myself into the 21st century – Twitter account is @DaveJPosti – only just set it up but do intend to Tweet stuff on mental health etc

    • Hi David,

      Thanks for your kind words πŸ™‚ I did some exercise and some distraction and feeling a bit better now. Just felt a bit low this morning about the idea that I just have to tolerate what are really quite graphic visual thoughts but I think I need to apply my mindfulness here and find some acceptance for the situation as it is. I’m just in the middle of putting your post into a guest post so let me know if there’s anything you need me to amend before I post it. I’ll add you on twitter too πŸ™‚ Emily

  4. Hello Emily, I just wanted to write something down for you – I have been reading through your blogs after (thankfully) finding them today. It’s like reading my own thoughts, I guess you get that alot but my god. What you do matters, thank you xxx

    • Wow thanks Laura, I really appreciate your comment. I had a hectic day at work and I came home to find this so it put a smile on my face. Thank you :). I’m glad you could relate, well not *glad* exactly, I’d rather you didn’t have it obviously but I’m glad that you can see that you’re not alone πŸ™‚
      I hope your own recovery is going well.
      Emily x

  5. Im glad I put a smile on your face because you put one on mine. I feel very akin to you because everything you say I have felt or thought. (I know that sounded cheesy but its the only way i could describe it) I wish i could write a letter to the 17 year old me as that is when it hit me like a tidal wave. The thoughts just overloaded me and I was walking round like a zombie scared that I will or have done something to someone. I also had the fear of HIV and it took me til I was 24 to go and get a test! Needless to say i didn’t have it but there we go. I was thinking about starting a blog as I think it may help, thank you once again xx

    • Ah no that doesn’t cheesy, it’s really sweet of you to say, it’s so lovely to come across other people who ‘get’ it.Sounds like we’ve had a lot of the same obsessions, lucky us hey! You should definitely do a blog if it’s something you’re interested in, I’ve really loved doing mine, meeting lovely people, getting stuff off my chest, I’d recommend it πŸ™‚ If you do it then let me know and you can post a link to it in the comments section on here. Emily xx

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